Positive or Negative

2011-02-26T09:38:00.000-08:00

心揪着揪着是心痛的感觉明明早已决定放手因为事情从一开始就不由我控制作主却掩饰不了悲伤害怕假装不了洒脱大方

update soon~

2010-09-11T10:02:00.000-07:00

2010-08-31T13:23:00.000-07:00

总是想让自己看起来很坚强因为清楚自己并不能干

总是不轻易的显露担心害怕因为讨厌自己懦弱的模样

总是希望完美的隐藏悲伤失落却矛盾的想从你身上得到安慰

总是习惯装作一副不以为意的样子自以为那样不会受创

总是喜欢发问为什么因为开始不自不觉想对你了解更多

总是想追上你的脚步竟然会那么担心你的背影会突然消失

听你说要陪伴我那一刻其实我是出乎意料的高兴

你说你要证明的一切其实这个动作真的可以行得通

你说得对我是如此的自私

不意外的你最终还是选择了留下

我会支持也该为你想想

不想在乎别人怎么诉说你的过去我选择了相信

只要是你说的我不怀疑

我承认我太仓促我太鲁莽我太冲动

但是我不后悔

虽然再也接受不了背叛

因为你太特别

我很彷徨我想付出但是我又做得了什么

我不能放弃它虽然它算不了什么

心好空有时却很凌乱

因为不安我的情绪总是失去控制

对你使的坏脾气感到抱歉

其实好害怕总有一天你会受不了我怪异的个性

更害怕我们的感情根本没办法承受时间的考验

害怕失去害怕别离

一个人面对一个陌生的环境

我能做的只有相信

勇敢些笨蛋！

2010-07-09T02:48:00.000-07:00

Wohoo

Arrive ma home around 5pm,

Quite busy in working currently, have no time to rest properly

And feel stress bcuz i have 0 of sales, i'll get my warning letter soon

But this is not the matter i worry about, just because i really want to contribute to the employer

''It's ok,you are new'' Thanks for ur comfort but i will not taking this as my reason

I don't want ma manager regret of hiring me, ma friend embarrass of intoducing me to the company!

Anyway, i believe i can do better.

I hope i can always do the best in any decision i have made.

2010-07-01T10:39:00.000-07:00

I could be an excellent actress i think

My tears were actually came to my eyes at that moment

When listening the song which sang by her

But

I won't show it to you

I hide it!

You're right

I don't like people showing symphaty to me

Well, i know everything will be alright...

Take it easy Mint!

There's something more important... nope, most important waiting for you tomorrow!

Be well-prepared and go for it!!

Always remember,

Do not be too dependent

Especially to guys...

2010-06-28T09:04:00.000-07:00

Looking at the old days

When we were all together

Can't imagine that ...

I wasn't a good student last time

Liked to sleep and eat , wasted too much of time

Basketball court was my favourite area in my secondary school

Feel like it is the beginning of my diary

I went to Smk S4 for only 3 reasons

I afraid of stress where given by Catholic High School, i am definitely not a stress tolerant person

A good friend was in Smk S4 and the last one was exactly the basketball court.

I remember that...

I was an optimistic little girl when i was thirteen, have a good network of friends

But , i became cool and unfriendly started from form 3

I wonder why.. this made me lost the opportunities to know more ppl around me

I feel lucky bcuz finally i have the chance to share everything with u girls

However, my besties will never leave me alone

They will always lend me their hands when i need help

I have learned alot from you all brodas

Not going to list out all your names

You guys know who am i talking about

Yea you know!

All ma sistas & Brodas... Love you all!!!

2010-06-03T01:31:00.000-07:00

Finally, i understand

Is time to let it go

Happiness is what we looking for in a relationship, but not tears

I don't have to force myself to forget anything abt you

Bcuz i ..

Appreciate the moment we been together

Cherish the memories that we made it together

Bye Bye... The one who played an important role in my past

You'll be my motivation when i face difficulties or challenges

Thanks for telling me that life will be interesting and meaningful after having your own goal

I will keep going towards my dream

You too. I would like to hear from somebody that u are traveling around the world with your lovely family
members one day later

And it has also becoming my dream right now

I believe we can complete it in a short term

Bcuz i know.. as i always like to say it to you, You can do it!

2010-05-12T12:21:00.000-07:00

He has further education background, that's why he must has more space to explore to new things

Don't you think i do not need all of these?

I do want to study, i do need more freedom

I just don't want to stay at that place everyday and doing the same thing

I have my own goal too! Is this fair?

I understand you are tired on supporting his education ,that's why i have stopped thinking about get in to college anymore

I really don't want to against you

I do have an attitude problem

I am a bad temper person

honestly i can't accept your way to correcting me

Of course you can scold me, because it shows that you are caring me

I am sure you have the qualification to ticking off me

But i afraid this could built up another wall between us

this is why i looking for another job

thought can avoid those unhappy matters happen

maybe i have choosen the wrong place for me to work

You said u will left me alone and won't think or even see me anymore

Perhaps, the only thing i can do now is achieve my dream asap

to prove you that i am not an useless person

by actions..

2010-04-17T09:36:00.000-07:00

Well, i realize that something is actually hiding in somewhere of my heart

though it has vanished for long time

But it doesn't happen like what i want

Heart is still bleeding when i feel your ugly breath

Your actions are really disturbing me!

Go Away! Go away from my heart please! I do not need your existence right now!

Love the feeling of learning!!

2010-02-21T02:13:00.000-08:00

I really feel that i have changed..

Start to feel interesting in those ways which will upgrade myself

Although... i am still a lazy girl

I am not the best one

So what? i willing to try! i willing to learn!!

You all are having a invisible wing and flying into the sky

Do not limit yourself in everything

Just think about it n just do it

It will let u change the world

defy your feeling!!

(This is what Mr.Pencil told me) and i like it so much!!

2010-02-17T10:32:00.000-08:00

凡事看开点日子好过点

与其后悔不如利用时间充实自己让遗憾不再增加

最近想要开始养成看书的习惯加油！

2010-02-04T03:35:00.000-08:00

Ms Mullai told me that i have attracted many of them today

She said i have talent on it...happy with that

I can be very funny in front of my friends

But why cant i do this in my own home?

Besides that,thank you to our group members Suet yee,Stella,Emily,Mayz Celyne and Joyce.

You girls made me feel that i am lucky because i got in to Centuria education.^^

2010-02-01T02:32:00.000-08:00

I am happy because of having my girl friends^^

Although i don't really know their characteristic

and i don't even know anything about their past

I am not sure everything about them

But,they are my friends now!

ＷＥ　ＨＡＶＥ　　ＴＩＭＥ！

I think that i really have to change the way of being with them

Girls are always more sensitive than guys

i know that i am careless,sorry about that

And there's so many things that i got to improve!

OMG!I wanna watch drama before doing those homework XP

P.s- Totally fall in love with Shu Uemura make up remover,no more uncomfortable after using it!^^

2010-02-01T02:12:00.000-08:00

Today, i would like to say thanks to someone who played an important role in my past

Yes,i do agree life will be meaningful and interesting when one person got his/her vision

I do understand what were you talking about right now no matter its too late

Thanks for teaching me to become more optimistic and i have learned a lot from u especially positive thinking

I was a different person now who is having my own dream and goal

I really hope to say thank you to you face to face but i do not want to disturb you.

But, i will do it when i achieve my goal if there's an opportunity for us. XP

Dream destination: MAS

2010-01-29T05:50:00.000-08:00

quite happy today

because i have jumped out from the other shining stars

but it was just because of they were not in a good situation today

and i know i have to put more effort on it

i must believe that i can do it more than once

Jia you!

besides that,there's also an unhappy news for me today

but,i think it's just a small matter and i will solve it asap.

明天会更好

2010-01-24T07:10:00.000-08:00

碰巧回到了从前我们一起共用早餐

用手机拍下我们拥有相同掌纹的那个座位

直到现在我仍然觉得很奇妙

我很清醒

我努力在背明天要演讲的草稿

至于我们之间我很清楚都成为过去了如今那都只是回忆

难免会有一丝丝的伤感

但是我已经习惯了

一个人的用餐时间

我每天都要进步

因为明天会更好的！

加油！

past tense

2010-01-21T07:27:00.000-08:00

it was past
it was past
it was past
it was past

how many times i gonna tell myself everyday?

everything between us are going to change into past tense

it was just a song, enable to made me cried in class?

please stop la wei! i am not suppose to be like that!

I have my main goal, i have my dream isn't?

how long time could i stop influence by u?

再见

2010-01-18T09:51:00.000-08:00

你们都那么亲近了

我也该是时候接受事实了

不该在自欺欺人天真地以为自己还有希望

不能忘记你曾经的细心关怀备至是我最大的致命伤走到哪里都是你的影子

朋友说的没错

当一对恋人热恋其中所说的话都会是好听悦耳的

我真的不该再让自己被这些话迷惑了

越是让你感到幸福的只会越容易让你痛心

还是要谢谢你教会了我要正面的思想这真的给了我很大的帮助

因为你我第一次选择相信但是却狠狠地失败了

我将重新将自己的心封锁

重新让自己成为刺猬般强悍

同时也像刺猬般脆弱

孬种

2010-01-17T08:43:00.001-08:00

没有自信　　　最难受的是让我失去了你

没有自信　　　我被老板和工作伙伴看不起

没有自信　　　我不被负责审核的老师和同学们欣赏

没有自信　　　连和母亲的联系都受到牵制

再来　我会因为没有自信而失去了面试的首要条件　自动退赛

黄敏谦　到底你还要因为这胆小如鼠的自己　放弃多少　失去多少

鼓起勇气　加把劲好不好？

2010-01-17T08:03:00.000-08:00

why? because i already consider you are one of my family members

you do not believe in eternal? It's okay. Time will prove it to you

I don't know everything, but i just know you are the one who i want to protect

what i want just go for it,do not afraid of everything,because you will stand by me

NOW,I　WAS GONE IN YOU EYES AND MEMORIES

but, i cant forget all the things which u told me and did for me

You are the one who set it up, but you are the one who make it stop too

I cant do anything,but just watching u walk further,and going closer with the girl

Christmas 09'

2009-12-24T12:29:00.000-08:00

I can feel somethin from your eyes, thinkin too much? aha

Alcohol make me feel sad,but i just need it.

Its freaking tired today, i need rest..

Merry Christmas to everyone, and you!

09冬至

2009-12-21T08:21:00.000-08:00

去年的冬至是多么的甜蜜

我与你的每个经历都狠狠的刻在心底

曾经熟悉的广场熟悉的店面熟悉的餐厅熟悉的味道

却都成了我想要逃避的一一

一切都没有改变只是我失去了

熟悉的面孔和最温暖的手掌心

我依然关心着你的近况却又不敢再作任何打扰

人是否总是要在失去的时候才懂得珍惜无奈一切都已经来不及

2009-12-20T10:09:00.000-08:00

从小到大，我学习过不少玩意儿

无数次的半途而废，自己和父母渐渐不再抱任何期望

而面对这一次突如其来的机会却形成一股压力

我的目标清晰，只是

我准备好自己了吗？

我必须回答，是

我的生活我的挑战，这才开始。

Self conservation (P mix N)

2009-12-02T06:10:00.000-08:00

(My Homework)

Push myself to the positively thinking

Force myself to be Optimistic

Encourage myself with some updated sentences

Start to feel tire on doing this everyday

Its not that easy for me

Should i stop it now?

Lost confidence

I know who i am

I understand what i have

But i just don't hope to give up

I should improve myself

I wanna fight!

But how about

If

i am making a wrong decision

i am gonna disappointed my parents again

So,who care?

I am young

I should try something new right now

There are so many challenges lie ahead of me

Its just a stepping stone to enable me to walk further in my future

As someone said,there's always a wall that blocking the light

What i have to do is break the wall and do not avoid and escape on it

so, can i do it？

Eww..stop to talking with myself

I am gonna CRAZIEH!!!

2009-11-29T03:38:00.000-08:00

我凭什么哭

我以为我是谁

我没有这个资格

(N)

2009-11-11T10:09:00.001-08:00

Hey you!! Wong Min Chen!

Is time to wake up idiot!!

Thatz only 5 days for you now. Do u think its enough?

For others,Maybe Yes! For you? Absolutely Not!

回忆-档案

2009-11-07T22:27:00.001-08:00

我还真喜欢这个暑假

因为你让我的想法开始起了变化

你是唯一一个用时间耐心和细心让我建立起信任的人

我会记得你为我准备的早餐好美味但很热气

我拍下了照片可惜手机不见了

我会记住你在广场替我系好鞋带好窝心

我会记得我们在书局里胡闹你把书放在我拿不到的地方到现在我还不知道是什么样的书那么神秘

我会记住我们在停车场里吃着寿司

我会记住我们一起看过的电影你是我最爱的男主角

我会记住我们一起去过的餐厅但我比较爱吃你煮得快熟面

我会记住你为我的魔卡添糖也因为我不爱甜食所以你一点一点地添

咖啡不甜心甜

我会记住冬至我们一起揉汤圆结果糖浆太甜我不爱吃甜你把它吃完

我会记住山顶看下去一盏盏的灯旁边坐的正正是你

不过那里有好多蚊子

我们还一起去了IKEA 那里有你最喜爱的床

我会记住你背着我爬了四层楼不曾把我放下

你会用拥抱阻止我拿那双你说伤害眼睛的隐形眼镜

拜托别再拍下我睡着的丑样好难看

听你说彩虹是触不着的可它永远存在

放烟火时你不在我身边但我还是很开心

因为我们的心似乎在一起

我们一起做沙拉

我更会记住我们去攀山时你是怎么无微不至的保护我

因为你说你只知道你想要保护我

晚上你不想让我出去也只是不想我受伤害

还好有你不断忍受我的野蛮情绪

伤心时我会记得你说的我还有你

对不起一而再在破坏你的惊喜

谢谢你。。。

这篇文章很熟悉吧这都是最棒的回忆

谢谢你以往的耐性等待让步和为我设想

好喜欢你把每天所学习到的和我一起分享

甚至把我当作是你的练习对象

曾经你还没回到家里我就能从电话话筒里听到你的声音

你说过要将我的生活改变成五颜六色

你说过很想尽快和我一起工作

然而现在却再也没有机会了

如果这就是尽头

那我会将这一切转变成最美好的过去

归类回忆

(P)

2009-11-05T07:51:00.000-08:00

我想坚持我想尝试

我不哭(N)

2009-10-30T23:12:00.000-07:00

原本以为这只是一场考验

只要我相信很快便会撑过去的

但是你的举动

似乎告诉我我在一厢情愿

不知所措

我一边打着键盘一片尝试缓和颤抖的双手

我不习惯这样的自己

我的心应该像石头般坚硬的这不是我

跨栏(P)

2009-10-25T08:30:00.000-07:00

真的不要将我冲口而出的话放在心上我并没有讨厌过你所做的事

因为在我心里你永远是最好的。

经过了昨晚我也该是时候收拾心情只是对朋友们感到抱歉

麻烦了他们一晚上真的很不好意思。

我会换个角度看待，这或许是个考验，属于我们感情中的跨栏。

我相信，我们一定能跨过去的。

哪怕我不知道我在你的梦想图里的位置是否有被删去

接下来没有你的日子我会尝试放下属于我们的一切

我也得充实一下自己为了我自己的梦想加油不然怎么配得上在努力奋斗的你

就像你说的这些时间是为了让我们成长

我第一次选择了相信

同时，我会一直戴着你送我的项链。

Got Lost!(N)

2009-10-14T09:00:00.000-07:00

Don't know what should i do

Don't know what can i do

Don't know what will i do

And don't know what is the reason about what i did

I just feel sad...

start to be childish start to be stupid

Perhaps i am still a child

Somebody lead me back to normal?

Wish me have a sweet dream tonight

at least...in dream

Nick Vujicic(P)

2009-09-29T00:53:00.000-07:00

今天我们遇到的都算些什么

相比起来

这小小的问题也面对不了这般懦弱不感到害羞吗？

只要乐观积极人生还是充满希望的！